Still Fat...

I am about to see the person I THINK I might be attracted to again. The sad things is I am still not skinnier. Now I am not really huge or anything, but I am not thin right now. I want to be, but I guess not enough. It is not like food is forced into my mouth. I obvoisuly eat enough to maintain my current "soft" weight. Anyway, I will see this person again. I just wanted to complain (as if I had no controlvover the matter) that I am not thinner as I promised myself I would be when I saw them again.

My question is this: how much does this matter? Would a guy be SO shallow as to not be able to see past 10 pounds? I guess shallow is not the right term. It is not their fault if they are not attracted to "fluffy" I guess. The question I guess is, does 10 pounds matter THAT much to a guy? Would you as a guy rather be with a skinny minny that is maybe not as fun in the sack, or one who might be fluffy that is fun? Will fluffy ever even get a chance?

Just some thoughts. I know nothing will come of my "crush",but it is fun to imagine anyway. I think I am forever destined to have romance of the mind...mental not physical. Maybe the local nunnery has openings?? At least then my sexless-ness will have a reason.

And yes...there was gin tonight...but sadly, no bearing of anything.

Sadly, it probably does matter. It shouldn't, but it does. People often cannot get past the physical. I guess its why some people can buy investment homes better than others...some see the potential in things and others do not. I guess if they cannot see your potential, fluffy or not, sad as it is...it's best they go find skinny minny- keep looking and one day the one who sees the good in you will find you...and hopefully you will also be attracted to them

I think I am disagreement here...

As a FFG (former fat girl), I NEVER had any trouble finding boys to 'play' with. Don't get me wrong...it's much easier to get the boys YOU want when you aren't packing pounds, but sexy is a state of mind. At even at my FFG state, I had people (men and women) tell me I was sexy.

Do you really know for sure that this boy isn't attracted to your fluff? More cushion for the pushin' is what I always say! Truly it has been my experience that while thin, in-shape girls with tight abs and perky breasts are pretty to look at, it's not the everyday reality AND most boys that I've come into contact with actually LIKE to have something to hold on to. And, while I am no longer a FG, I still have some squish...ya just gotta work it to your advantage! Find your best physical assets...whether it's eyes, ass, boobs, legs, whatever...and exploit them!

Lastly, to be sexy, you have to be confident...shove that insecure stuff to the back of the shelf when you're around this 'crush' of yours and use what ya got!